50% ain't bad

It's not good either. It's down the middle. Right now I'll settle for that.

My problem trying to write everyday could be that I've always wondered if I had anything worth saying. I grew up not too far from the "kids should be seen and not heard" era. My dad was a firm believer. My mother was just too busy. I heard "Get to the point" and "Don't talk just to be talking" alot. I learned to talk to myself. I always listened, nobody else did. Everybody thought I was the quiet one.

When I was a teenager, I wrote all the time...on napkins, in my math notebook, anywhere. The thoughts and ideas flowed like the Mississippi in a 100 yr. flood. I even daydreamed of being a writer. (I still toy with that one sometimes.) Then low self-esteem and life in general got in the way. I never got back to writing down all the randomness in my head.

Trying to "practice" writing for a blog I'll have in the future with a specific subject but not having a subject while I practice has brought up the "Don't talk just to be talking" rule. I guess I just have to remember that blogs give us permission to not get to the point if we don't want.

Already messed up in practicing

I was gonna try to do this everyday and I messed up on day two. I guess that's what practice is for.
I've been making lists in my head about needs done before K gets here. Things like: clean; organize; kid-proof ; Katy's room needs cleaned and all the boxes I've stored in there since Christmas need put up in the closet. I don't see myself doing any of it real soon.

I'm a notorious procrastinator. I will wait until the night before a big get together at my place to clean. Then I'm up all night cleaning, prepping food, a couple of hours of sleep, cook food, everybody shows up and everything is fine. (Sarah, I know I started that sentence with a preposition. The whole sentence is incomplete and I think I'll leave it. My inner teacher would like me to fix it but I've ignored her my whole life . Why start listening now?)

I have work to do so I have to go. (Work for somebody else. I'm always willing to do for someone else what I'd rather not do for me.lol)

Beginning

Okay, so I've never done this before and have decided I need to practice before I do it for "real".

The deal is: My daughter, M, is headed over seas in May. She is Army. She'll be leaving behind not only me, but her 3.5 year old son, K. While she's gone K will stay with me until his father is in a position to care for him. Don't ask, it's too complicated.

I hope to blog every day on what's going on with K and me so she can check in when she has the chance and know that all is well with him. I won't kid myself that this will keep her from missing him. I just hope she will worry over him less and that the updates will bring her some bright spots during a tough assignment.

I'm gonna try to write something everyday on here to get in the habit, maybe learn to be a little more concise. So, talk to you tomorrow.